Though I can fill those blanks, I am deliberately leaving them blank for a reason which I don’t want to express.
Well, the main reason for me taking up an offer with my current employer four and a half years before is because, I was promised that I will be sent Onsite ( the word – Onsite mesmerized me). Many things happened – the project for which I was selected didn’t get through and so am forefully pushed in to project that uses technology which is not current. Though the technology was not current, I learnt a lot of things in this company. I learnt about Data Modelling , got exposed to DBA activities, got exposed to the workings of a department and above all its my first coroprate experience.. So good so far…
Over the period of four and a half years, I failed to keep myself current on the technology. I wouldn’t say that I didn’t read/study new technology. Infact I learnt but I didn’t put them in to use (because of the project constratint). Me keeping myself not updated on technology let to many dis-appointing moments. The very first being – my manager who so far claimed that I was doing an excellent job, told me a couple of days before that I don’t have any of that super thing on my skillset ( I don’t know what the super thing he has.. anyway that’s none of my business. He has the authority called MANAGER and he can talk right at my face, but I cannot do that – not a computer logic). I was dis-appointed to the core. But then he is true. Introspecting where things went wrong, I found that my laziness and procastination were the reasons. So many times I planned for studying ( buy books.. believe me I have enough books on the technology on which I wish to equip and they sleep well in my book shelf), but all the times I failed to execute the plan. But now, after this incident, something has went into my head and heart (something more emontional). Now, I have a solid plan to get myself equiped.
I did a search on web and I found that there are many people who has been in this situation and many have overcome that. I get to read their blogs, read their articles and get valuable information from them. Thanks for all of them.
I am confident that I can get back and add that Super thing back into me. Thanks for stopping me and saying that you don’t have that super thing in your ….
Why I write this in an open Blog.. I don’t know.. After all this is a place where I can my thoughts rather spill my random thoughts….